How ‘Functional Depressives’ Hide Among You (Podcast) | My personal story
I recently had a deep conversation with Ava Armstrong and Malcolm Out Loud on the radio show we co-host together, Life, Liberty & the Pursuit of Pleasure about ‘functional depressives’. I explained part of my history of depression and what it took to overcome it, once and for all. Both of my co-hosts on this episode had different experiences, one mild and one even more extreme. Tune in to hear more.
Most people were shocked to see my TEDx in Monaco where I admitted that I hid a 2-decade long history of depression. No one knew that I was miserable and sad inside. That’s because as a functional depressive I didn’t feel so listless that I couldn’t get out of bed. Unlike some people who have major depression, I wasn’t totally withdrawn, I didn’t sleep too much, eat too much nor the opposite.
I was highly functional. I went to one of the top medical schools in the United States, I worked 100+ hours at Georgetown University Hospital, I ran a wellness center while being on TV for Discovery Health Channel every day for years. And all the while, I hid my sorrow with a smile.
As I stood on stages around America teaching people how to get healthy and live with passion, I was secretly feeling like a bit of a fraud. That’s because I wasn’t fully living with passion.
When I hit rock bottom, back in 2005, I couldn’t live a lie anymore. In fact, I cried out to God for help. I wanted that version of my life to end, I did not want to go on anymore.
Both of my co-hosts on this episode had different experiences, one mild and one even more extreme. Tune in to hear more.